As I sit here, wishing that today did not have to go, I finally realized that sometimes it is the small stuff that matters so much more. I miss my friend and spending time with her--but the Denise that I knew did not drink and today she chose to spend time with us as a friends and not drink. I woke up really early not so sure of myself of what I was going to do with the girls since they had been grounded the night before and I realized, I wanted to get out and do something. I did---and I did just that. We had an Easter Egg hunt, went to church, went to Red Lobster---the treat of my friend---and then went to go see HOP. I haven't had this much fun in such a long time, it made me miss spending time with my loved ones that understanding that I need to take these moments when I can because they are the ones I cherish. I was laughing and I felt like I had my friend back after all these months. I feel lonely at times and I hope she knows how much I care about her, she is like a sister, mother, confidant and I don't want to loose her. But her drinking does bother me but she proved me wrong today.

In so long I have wanted to do things with friends---and today that dream came true. Church was so awesome--I love Pastor Gary's sermon's. And when I left, I felt at peace for the day. She took us to red lobster--her treat and I got to get Lobster---it was so good. And HOP was very cute and she liked it. I'm so glad that she did. I want to make up to her what she did for us today because she didn't have to do that. I will find a way, I know I need to.

But now I sit here not wanting today to end, and not wanting to go back to work tomorrow. I'm left with fond memories of today, wishing for another day like today. I hope she feels like I do and I hope she had just as much fun. I love my munchkins even though I sometimes get agitated with them. I would not change it for anything in the world---for the first time in months I feel as if I am truly blessed and God has blessed us so. I see how far we have come and even though there are still struggles and pain to go through, it is days like these that make me wish for more and long for just another second. I thank you Lord for everything--and making me see just what I have in front of me and for providing me with so much more everyday. It is because of you that we are where we are now---I am forever in your debt.