Stepping out from a room is like taking a leap of faith, you really have no idea what is going to happen to you when you leave that room. You just know you have to, you obviously can't stay in that room forever. It has been shown and proven that human beings need contact and if someone tells you they don't, they are lying. Of course, there are times when we need our space and alone time, but for now...my time is not one of those.

I'm finding I must not talk about the events at hand, think about them or even try to mention them or I go into stress overload. It brings me to the lies and deceit that I realized I had been played by the one I had loved for the last five years--and how blind love really is. However, if I give up and give into what he wants, I could loose out on the very things that I need. Being vague here because again...trying to avoid the whole topic of conversation.

On to lighter news, my accounting professor finally responded to me. The shocker of all shockers that I finally got an answer in my forum. I guess my academic counselor was right and that means I should listen to him. Sometimes it is hard to trust people and right now I'm going through a trust issue that is hard for me to fathom. When will that trust be returned?? Well, that is not something I can answer but I know eventually it will come. Life has a way of coming back around when you least expect it.

I'm trying to find a verse, a bible verse to be exact, that I can think of when my mind starts to wander. A friend at work advise to me to get Vitamin B as this vitamin is to help with stress and well I am in abundance of stress right now! HA--that is an understatement! More like 10 feet under the porch type of thing. Hell--they say what won't break you will make you stronger--little did I know this was probably my breaking point. Divorce...not an easy thing and even harder when one side makes lies about the other. I only wish I could turn back time, but then I would never had the two most wonderful things in my life--my munchkins. Honestly, they were worth it all and if he really believes they are not his--well, so be it. I guess if you live a lie for so long you eventually start to believe it. In this case--I know the truth and if he wants to live in denial let him. Just let me move on with my life with these two wonderful beings that God graced me with and let's be done with this. I only wish it was this simple. Only time will tell.